Is it true, could it be? just five days before I travel, not sure where to or from which airport yet but the details seem irrelevant right now, just as long as I’m going. Every time I think about it, my reality seems to twist, a feel a little (a lot) light headed and the world around me seems to be distorted somehow. I know I sound crazy but I guess I am. Crazy about her. Have I mentioned her before? The shining light in my darkness, beatiful, gorgeous, passion personified? My universal goddess, the activator of my super powers, my rock, my love.

So now it feels like time has taken on a new velocity, it’s weird, the time is falshing past, will we have time to organise it, will I be able to book the flights so late? At the same time, minutes crawl past. My entire being wanting, needing to be there. If you could travel by will or passion alone, I’d have enough to transport us anywhere in the universe. I keep imagining that it’s true, willing myself across our divide, just in case (Are you listening Universe?)

My schedule this week is quite hectic, lots of distractions to pass the time but it’ll disrupt our ability to talk. That makes me nervous just thinking about it, I need my fix, I need my love, I need my …… (nearly!).

I’m still thinking of ways to extend my visit. We discussed it yesterday, what if I could fly back on Thursday? We could fly together, jet lag and 6000 mile flight would be so much more bearable with her in my arms. I wouldn’t need sleep, or food, or drink, just her by my side as sustenance. Mmmm, that picture makes me smile, snuggled up in the plane together, I don’t think I’d notice the uncomfortable seats. Baggage hall, customs, border security would be fun, not a chore. Let’s see what the universe offers. I hope we don’t share the flight with colleagues, it’ll be embarrassing for them.

My love, my heart, my everything, I’m counting the seconds. I’ve said “holding you” so many times, I’m wearing it out but it’s all I want to do, melting together, time will stand still, our hearts beating as one after what feel like an eternity apart, I can still feel the airport ouch, it was both just yesterday and forever ago.

Universe, good work on the roller coaster, you sure like to keep this interesting. Keep her safe, the weather is terrible. I maintain my faith in you, hold her until I can get there.