The power of words is something I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about in the last few weeks. From writing here (which is really just an outlet for my subconscious) through communicating with colleagues, peers, prospective employees to finally (most importantly) maintaining the most incredible, fundamentally life changing, makes my soul sing, relationship that the universe has been kind enough to guide me into.

I’ve always, read and re-read the written word whether it be a fact, fiction or email especially when I’m trying to decipher the mood and intent of the writer. Often when I’m trying to write with the correct tone, gravitas, pitch I will write and re-write, the final outcome completely different to the first draft, but now it’s more, so much more.

I’ve found that a single word, sometimes two (or three as a good minimum) can have a profound effect on the mood of the receiver, waves of pleasure, heart skipping a beat, butterflies. In the last couple of days I’ve been trying to train myself to ensure I read and write with a positive mind, simply because, like walking around like the universe has your back, the world responds accordingly. It seems to be working.

The beautiful, incredible, complicated, adorable, gorgeous, sexy, shining light in my life has found us generating our own vocabulary, these words or phrases carry an order of magnitude more power than the silly mundane stuff all the others speak. “Have I told you I love you?”, “I think  I might keep you”, “It’s cute you think you have a choice”. Heart stopping, every.fucking.time.

We’ve even got our own set of acronyms, started at first as a series of code words but now, they act as a distillation or even concentration of the emotion or feeling they convey. Like their power is an inverse of their size, infinite bundles of emotion and passion in just a few letters. It started with “CS” which was quite simply the theme for all of this. Describing the paralyzing sensation of our aching souls reaching out across the distance, it characterizes me spending all my waking hours thinking of her, her eyes, her hair, her face, her body, her voice, her laugh, her lips (hold that thought), her language, her mood, basically everything.fucking.thing.about.her in great detail. You wouldn’t think it was possible to convey that in just two little letters but we both know, and it still stops me in my tracks. There are others and there will be more, so many more. 

NFM…AFG… These are particularly powerful and I won’t dilute them with a description it is personal & private to us, needless to say, surpassing all boundaries.

The power of words comes into it’s own when we are both hyper sensitized to one another, when speaking and even texting I find myself knowing how she is feeling and what she is thinking, happy, sad, smiling laughing, biting her lip in that OH.SO.FUCKING.HOT.WAY it’s like a sixth sense, perhaps a universal bonding, a quantum connection. I decided I would see how powerful our bond and the words within it could be and I made a plan. After waiting impatiently for her to wake for what felt like forever I was actually so nervous, like a first date, or that first time you get undressed in front of someone you love, my heart was pounding.

It started… I was direct, firm, assertive explaining exactly what the rules were. I began talking descriptively and rhythmically in time with my walking pace, not stopping, describing the scene, the actions, the sensation, every detail, not stopping, rhythm, rhythm, 1,2,3,4 1,2,3,4. Asking question, describing motions, describing the feelings she should be having, not stopping, not stopping, rhythm, asking, telling….. 

And then it happened, she felt what I said she would, she reached a crescendo without touch, purely mental effort, my words like treacle, or magic, or some.fucking.thing. It was more powerful than I could have hoped and certainly more than than we ever imagined, I’d found a new super power, pretty fucking potent one too but it’s just for us, one of many private, personal, intimate super powers.

It’s time to sign off. Let it be known I could talk on this subject for hours (especially the latter) but I want to keep it short. Saving some for another time seems appropriate.

To my incredible love, I love the power our words have, it’s like a public code that no one knows. We can say simple things that are mundane to others but have physical effects on each other, we have our own condensed, super charged words and phrases that span dimensions with their power. I Thank you from the bottom of my soul for being my universal partner. I love you. CS

Universe, you still keep it coming, don’t you? Thank you, truly.