Thinking about the vast physical distances I have travelled in the last almost seven months, I realise that miles are nothing in comparison to the actual journey I’ve shared with my angel. The physical, emotional, spiritual, even mental journey has been incredible and profoundly life changing. From that first moment it has felt like life has fallen into place, I’m on the path I’d always meant to be on and everything that went before pales into insignificance (pales in significance). I’ve aligned myself with the universe and made my peace with god, I felt things I’ve never felt before and I feel like the jigsaw has fallen into place. As I started to take control and steer my path, I felt like the very fabric of life was helping me along the way

The ability for me to take control, choose my path and bend the will of the universe my way was activated by her, my angel, my goddess. A shining light in the darkness, unlocking my potential and awakening a passion I never knew could exist. Even during this time of disruption, I still feel her power in me, it’s just suppressed, sleeping, dormant. It’s waiting for her to smile again, to find her path and I feel that when she does, it’ll awaken with new ferocity. Together we will take on the world anew, adventures will present themselves and we’ll be steering together again.

I wonder often what to ask for when I speak to God or the universe, there are obvious go tos, keep her safe, help her find the path, steer her back to me or me to her, lottery or scratch off card win perhaps… But I can’t help but feel I’m asking for the wrong thing, I keep searching for the right request, it’s alluding me for now, I feel it in the back of my mind, shouting at me but the sounds are silenced. I’m listening, keep telling me, I’ll get it eventually.

I dream of just being with her but also what life is holding in store for us, hidden behind a secret curtain. Just have to find it and the sun will come streaming in and we’ll see our path ahead.

To you, my darling, beautiful enigmatic Goddess, you continue to guide me even in this time of constant twilight. You are incredible, my inspiration and my guide. You are passion personified and I miss holding your body to mine and and and. Keep faith my love and help me look, the path is there, I know it’s true with every essence of my being.

Lord, help me find the right question to ask, seek the right guidance. She is hurting and it’s killing me, help me solve the puzzle, I implore you.

Universe, my offering to you is, help me find the path, help me make the right offering to you that will help warp the cosmos again, bring it, bring it on.

ILY IWY IMY

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