So much has happened in so little time, I feel dizzy to my core.

I suggested something fundamental, universe changing, immeasurable in size might happen when we met and… it did. Things are different again, just as I thought it couldn’t get stronger or more powerful. Boom. There it is, turning it up a notch, like some kind of universal multiplier. Not just turning the volume knob another notch, finding out there is another gear, another setting which multiplies the rate and depth by an order of magnitude.. Fuuuck. Really.. Fuuck

As the physical and emotional has evolved, morphed, become something new and different, so has the universe or my view of it. The pieces of the puzzle seem to be screaming at me to solve them, they feel achingly close like an optical illusion, willing me to see the hidden picture. The quantity of coincidences and “clues” increases day by day, plus something new, different, a sense of universal contraction, alignment, unification. It’s like the path has been set and what was ethereal and mysterious is showing itself in all it’s glory., the universe finally finding it hard to hide it’s hand. The world (universe) seems somehow smaller, less complicated, less intangible albeit the distances involved are still pretty collossal. I swear I had an out of body experince the other night as I was with her, physically, more than a dream, so much more than a dream, I get shivers (and other side effects) just thinking of it.

Synchronicity is the word that keeps coming to mind. We are back in our respective time-zones with all that entails, frustration, sadness, snatched moments, heart rate determined by “She is typing …” or not.. But… When we discuss our respective days there are similarities that are hard to argue away with logic, coincidences so obviously unlikely it seems that fate, the universe, god, <insert deity here> is almost goading us. “See?”, “Is it obvious yet?”. I’m struggling to explain this but it’s a feeling so strong it makes me pause often, trying to figure it out or at least describe it. It’s like before we were opposite hands, just touching by the fingertips finding each other across the void but now, fingers intertwined, we are clasped together, tightly, immovable, when one moves so does the other, even thousands of miles apart. Some kind of universal entanglement. My “sixth sense” related to her mood, feelings, needs seems to be second nature now. I even managed to guess what she was doing with her mouth when talking by text only. That felt pretty impressive. We’ve fallen into the same rhythm, dancing to the same universal song. Weird, fateful, incredible, immeasurably powerful. I never expected this. Some kind of cataclysmic event but not this.

It freaks me out that everything else is paling, (seriously) into insignificance. Nothing seems to inspire me or be more important than our next communication, the next time I hear her voice, the next meeting, the next…. OMFG.. I need to immerse myself in the next chapter, it’s like a great big universal novel that I can’t read fast enough, re-reading the previous pages and chapters often to keep me sane in the meantime.

Anyway, this post has brought me back from the silence, I’ve more to say, more to ponder, so much more of my goddess to worship, so very much more.

My love, my goddess, my.. nearly said you name (pretend I did, at least three times)… entwined and entangled across the seemingly infinite distance, I’ve never felt more connected and close to you. I can see and touch you at any time, the other night you were here or I was there, I don’t know which but it was real. Thank you for coming, thank you for being, thank you for your lips, thank you, I love you. Unbridled.

Universe, I feel like I’ve solved the first level, puzzle, challenge and now I’m starting to understand the rules but you’ve increased the number of dimensions. Challenge accepted.