6 days and counting.

Another beautiful day, the sun is shining and I’m up and out, ready for adventure. The drive to the station was incredible as always, great views, countryside, wildlife. The most poignant moment was as I hopped in the car, turned the key and the most relevant song was playing on the radio.

“Marshmello – Here with me”

For a simple pop song it manages to hit the nail on the multi-faceted head. I hum along dreamily as I drive carefully, my visual cortex seriously multi tasking while I visualise her face, eyes, smile in every detail. The road seems to take second priority (as everything should where she’s involved). My destination materialises as if by magic and I park the car grinning. Super-me is in fine form and I do “the walk” to the platform.

It’s fascinating to me how the world now works with me. I glance at people with curiosity and something about my face or demeanour seems to have them smile and sometimes even nod as if they know me. Surreal, when everything sort of fell into place this morning, it felt like the Truman show basically everything staged for me. Eerie sensation. Once again, logic suggests no such thing of course but it’s a serious distraction to think it is and, I really embrace all distractions right now!

I wanted to talk about the “universal jigsaw” concept that forming in the depths of my mind but I can’t seem to find the words right now, just ponder the notion of a universal, multi-dimensional jigsaw we could call life. Few are aware it’s there, they live their life unknowingly. But, it’s like I caught a glimpse of it out of the corner of my eye, a shadowy mass as i blink, I can perceive all the pieces now, and they feel like they are coming together, like something powerful, all changing, building and building towards some kind of ecstatic happening. Deep huh.

I’m now hurtling across the countryside with my random, temporary fellow travellers, passengers talking, working, eating sleeping. I catch glimpses of their lives, fascinating. Time to sign off, and focus on the job at hand, London is calling.

Universe, I bow to you. This reality make the rest of my life pale into insignificance, thanks for the wonders of this time and thanks for having my back.

To you, her, she that changed the fundamentals of my existence, rocks my world, makes my body swell (yup, on the fucking train too). I’m keeping you!

“Can I tell you something just between you and me?
When I hear your voice, I know I’m finally free
Every single word is perfect as it can be
‘Cause I need you here with me”

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