Yes, it’s coming. After what feels like a lifetime apart, the day we’ve both been waiting for is coming, exact dates and details remain to be decided but it’s coming and, at the rate the days are flashing past, it’ll be here in no time. I’m alternately walking on air and panicking like a silly schoolboy but always with a pounding heart and a grin on my face (and and and).

For what seems like an eternity, the world, the universe has held us apart, but we’ve never given up, through good times and bad, joy and sadness, sorrow, and celebration, we’ve endured, our love, our connection, our passion intact. Every day I wake, I lay in the dark and try to imagine holding my Goddess again, I can smell her hair, her skin, as if it were yesterday and I get goosebumps at the thought of holding her tight against me again. I worry that she’ll be disappointed by me in person after so long but she tells me often that that is a silly thing to worry about. I try hard to feel worthy and wake the Super Will she made and pray that I’ll see her face soften and smile when I step through the arrivals gate. Honestly, I feel that’s truly the case, a love like ours that has endured such impossible obstacles will outlast anything and I’m grinning at the thought of that moment when I see her beautiful eyes again, true bliss that makes everything pale in comparison.

Every day, my mind works overtime, running scenarios from the moment we see each other, through locked door passion and subsequent room service or bringing her breakfast (juice with ice of course) to mundane tasks we’ll do together in the future. I’ve pledged my life to her often and can’t wait for the first moments to start. I’m alternately “cooking with gas” and working chores and tasks like I’m walking on air and then finding myself unable to operate, stopped in my tracks as I think of together, from simply holding her hand to something way more pornographic, I’ll be mid-sentence on a call or stocking the refrigerator and I’ll just be frozen in step, grinning my silly grin as I imagine the love of my life in my arms again. It can’t come fast enough but now.. I know it’s coming and I’m thanking God, the Universe, anything I can think of to be honest, thank you everything.

When I think of everything we’ve endured with the distance between us, it seems so insignificant now I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, every day or moment that passes feels like a dream, everything around me is a blur and even colors seem brighter. I’m walking the walk that she caused in me all those months back, walking with a purpose and finding the Super Powers she created. I’m ready to kneel at my deity’s feet and shower her with my love (and anything else she wants), I’m striving to be good enough for her, but time is running fast, trying for good diet and press ups and anything else to be the best I can, craving that beautiful smile. I know in my heart it doesn’t matter to her but she deserves the best I can be, likely better, but I plan to do the best I can, I’ve never felt a love, a passion, like I feel for her, it feels so right, so perfect, I can’t wait to be worshipping her in person, it’s coming and I’m grinning, not just with my face but with my body, heart and soul, my very being is grinning

I’m constantly thinking of how, when we are together, a sideways glance or just locking eyes causes us to know exactly what we think, like a psychic connection, connected at the soul level, smiling wordlessly at each other. I can’t wait for that silent connection and wish she could feel my excitement, my passion, my love right now. If she could look in my eyes (oh her beautiful eyes) she’d know, she’d see the sparkle, the excitement, the love, the passion as plain as day and I know I’d see it back, nothing will matter when we get to look in each other’s eyes again, that I know for sure

My Goddess, I am always at my knees to you and can’t wait to be holding you again, thank you for enduring and keeping our love (and and) alive, I can’t wait to see your eyes, your smile, your body in person, it’s coming, I love you

God, thank you for all you’ve done to keep us close, open, evolving all this time. I think this was part of your plan and.. Thank you for showing us a path to the next chapter, thank you

Universe, well, you took your time…

ILY IWY INY ALJ