It was a year ago (well yesterday actually) when there was a paradigm shift. Just three days since we had been together for the first time, although I’d always felt close to her and had spent many hours speaking to and interacting with her, it was only three days ago when we were truly “together” physically. Three short days and many long phone calls, exploring and sharing and discovering each other since we’d flown away from each other for the first time, we started sharing intimate feelings, secrets and memories. It was on the anniversary of my Father’s death that I disclosed how I felt and why this part of the year is tough for me, she embraced my feelings and gave me love and emotion in response. It is still amazing to me that we became so close so quickly but I can’t help but believe this was the Lord, the Universe at work. It didn’t feel awkward or oversharing, nothing was off the table, just oh so right. From that moment on, our relationship bloomed as we plundered new depths of each other, new memories shared, feelings and childhood memories, wants and desires, some completely new exposed by our connection. Always just felt right, like we should have known each other forever, perhaps we did somehow.

I often wonder what would have happened had we met much earlier, had we found each other somehow and I think it would have been just as right, just as beautiful, just as passionate but I also believe that we were meant to come together at that time, when we’d had experiences, we’d lived life, we knew ourselves to a certain extent and that allowed us to see for certainty why this was different, so different, so magical, igniting passion like never before, exposing our desires, our feelings, our ambitions, activating me, exposing the Super Me, uncovering her a il bit. I have confidence that our paths were meant to cross at that time, that moment and as such, we could tumble together and share so quickly, so deeply, like we were making up for lost time. Every day waiting and thinking and talking and waiting and thinking and longing and and.

This time a year ago was truly a transition and revealed to us that we could be so close, the paradigm shift. I’m so happy that she embraced me, took my virtual hand and found my vulnerability attractive, sexy, she even said intimidating, I’d never seen it that way but she raised me up and guided me to her, to be at the side of my Goddess felt amazing, igniting the Super Me and making me feel like I could achieve anything with her hand in mine and that has proven itself time and time again since, bending the world to our will and making our destinies intertwined, together we have great power.

So here we are at the very start of the new year, a new chapter, far apart as we were then but ever hopeful we’d find a way but had no idea when. Now is the same although with even more uncertainty but I want to remember and never want to stop sharing and exploring and understanding her, my enigmatic Angel, my love, my Goddess. I don’t know the exact date but is was during this time there was also a birth of the term (and it’s acronym) Anything Fucking Goes, Nothing Fucking Matters, describing tumbling and turning with each other, no boundaries, no misgiving, no fear, just to be us, as we will, as we want, exploring ourselves and each other. Learning about each other and ourselves, discussing wants, needs and desires some always present, some that even surprised us, but starting with passion, coupled with depth of emotion, supported by intellect, this thrust us into the next evolution of ourselves, our lives and us. I cannot wait for the next dive into the waters of her, of us, immersing ourselves together, I am crazy about her and want to learn, share and evolve with her more every day.

My Goddess, my Angel, my Princess, you ignited me, awoke me a year ago, you allowed me to penetrate more than just your body, but your mind, your emotions, your soul. Am I forever grateful that you did and crave every day to continue our journey. Thank you for being you and letting me in. I am on my knees looking up at you as you shine, I love you.

Lord, we’ve grown close this past year and you’ve proven to me without any doubt that you are watching and listening, gently guiding and supporting, I implore you to continue to keep her safe and show us the way. I am at your mercy.

Universe, I have a feeling you are up to something, let’s get together later for some one on one time, I need a word.

ILY, IWY, I thank you, PB