One more wake up, that is, if I sleep at all. The stretching of days using time-zones becomes important here because, it means I can categorically state: I will see her tomorrow!

“Who?” I hear you ask…

Well, simply the most incredible, beautiful, gorgeous, sexy, intelligent, intriguing, enigmatic, funny, beguiling, mesmerizing, spellbinding, (words fail me) woman on the planet (universe). I’ve talked about her here a little bit.. My goddess, universal deity, gemstone, shining light… I fall at my knees before her. I am privileged to simply know her but it’s now much more than that. To have shared the time we have had so far has been incredible, the talking, smiling, laughter, flirting, playing, tears, moaning (sorry), sleeping, waking, sleeping, cumming (sorry), dating, working, aching, wanting, missing, loving, planning, sleeping. And, not sure if I mentioned this. I’ll be seeing her tomorrow. 

The universe has bent to my (our) will again and found a way for us to be together and now, the schedule is set, itinerary written (thank you), bags packed (nearly) and car fueled. I wish I could leave now, my heart and soul already has.

I think “super me” left last night, I don’t feel right today, I’m anxious, aching, twitchy, distracted, weak, trembly, legs like Jello ;), yearning, really fucking bad. Physical symptoms betraying the emotions I am feeling. I’m universally lost, besotted, in love with her, helplessly. I am beside myself. Petrified and exhilarated in equal measure, I can’t explain it. So many questions, so many stories to tell, I just hope she’ll hold me like I’ll hold her when I get there.

WAKE UP. One more, just one, that’s all. I’ve no time for doubt and worry, shit.just.got.real AGAIN. It’s hard telling myself this right now and I don’t know why. I hope I’ll speak with her because I know she’ll sort me out, I need my fuel for the journey and although I’ll admit to feeling a little weak right now but all I want to do is be strong, capable, powerful, self assured, sexy, smartest man in the room for her, so she knows I’m worthy of her affections. I’ll try, I’ll find super me, he’s probably already waiting in the arrivals hall. He fucking better be.

You beautiful thing. I’m coming, I’m on my way, just one more wake up, the journey will begin. I can’t get passed holding you in arrivals although I do have some plans, once I re-unite with super me I WILL show you, tell you, share with you, there will be rules…

Universe, thank you for delivering me this far. You’ve given me the universal gift of her companionship, just meeting her in person once was breathtaking. The long road since, filled with emotion, guessing, wondering and finally now, the awakening of everything in this very short space of time, thank you. Please help calm me and assure me, find my super me. I want to be the best I possibly can for her. No, scratch that I NEED to be the best I can for her “want” just doesn’t cut it. I leave that one in your hands.