Another flight, time to reflect.

So many moments, images, experiences, sensations, emotions that it is hard to single them out. I can’t possibly pick any favourite moment or hold a sexual crescendo any higher than gazing into each other’s eyes, laying naked fingertips stroking each other or even walking hand in hand through foreign (to me) streets, each experience, unique and exquisite. Before now, our secret keywords were kind of decided upon and almost agreed at the time, it’s gone full vocabulary now. As I have conversations with people or attend business meetings, simple words spoken conjure up full blown flashbacks, full color, cinematic experience, sensations and emotions to match.

I promised not to degrade the truly adult moments by describing them here which makes it easier to pick on some moments to recount (I’ll drop some hints along the way though). So many “getting to know you” times. Swapping scars and their related stories, spinning off into tales of family and childhood, chasing those threads of conversation that we always missed in our borrowed moments when we are far apart. Blissful is a word I’m using a lot because it, quite simply, fits.

Talking about what we’d do if we really did win $900,000 on the slots was both truly fantastical, a fiction played out but also very serious, discussing our wants and needs, entrepreneurial spirit and drive, our ambition and need to succeed, exceed expectations and where those impulses were rooted. That contrast, fantasy and reality bound up in the surreal seems to be our signature theme. Anything Fucking Goes, Nothing Fucking Matters, extended past just sheer animal abandon into the realms of dreams and aspirations, purpose and desire, forever intermingled. Listening to her dissect my yearnings in an objective way, that only she can, was truly humbling, I want more. Listening to her desires and inclinations from my logical, inquisitive perspective was an eye opener too, what’s more I have ideas forming, they aren’t ready yet, but my subconscious computer is running, I’ll let you know what it comes up with. 900K baby, 900K

I’m still reeling from that first 24 hours, it was so incredibly rich, seemed to last forever, lost in the dreamlike state, we met, embraced, kissed, heart skipped, Uber-ed, kissed, checked in, dropped bags, almost stayed, forced our way out, flirted, bar stooled, swapped ice, people watched, grinned, held hands, walked, casino-ed, bad-customer-serviced, returned, got naked, OMFG-ed (a lot) talked, kissed, stroked, laughed (a lot), room serviced (eventually), fed each other, laughed, loved, slept, awoke, slept, sated, added more firsts to the list, laid in the sun. Fuuck. Time truly distorted, I think I’m still there in an alternative universe, running that in a loop, lucky alternative me.

So many more experiences, weird coincidences (1337’s) but I’ll return to those as time allows. Business kicks in and time takes on a new cadence. Colleagues, customers, offices, Ubers, flights, hotels, Ubers, flights, customers, colleagues. You get the picture, and be assured there are another million moments committed to memory in there but then.. We had to go separate ways, taking different flights from the same airport was heart-breaking but just for a day, just a day, just a day… I’m still stunned by how hard that was. A flight, an Uber ride, a hotel, a night, a meeting, without her was painful to say the least but I feel I’ve had time to reflect, recharge and think about the time so far. I think it was important, needed, the universe sent it to remind us, I’m reminded. I get it. Bring.Super.Me

To you, the incredibly strong and driven, beautiful, powerful, universal gemstone. Thank you for sharing this time with me, for swapping stories and sharing your heart, emotions, family discussions. Thank you for losing yourself with me, thank you for wanting me. I hope I can impress you with the next period, with the recharged, inventive, super me. Universe, you proved you were listening so many times this week. The first surreal 24 hours proved you were listening when I asked you for time folding, you did it, seriously you did, fuuck. Keep it up, I’m at your knees.